Jennifer S. Binalimba

“Art of Letting Go”

 

            When I was child, I'm always been surrounded and truly love by my parents and relatives. I can't even imagine myself without them. Until one day my belief and principles got shaken and break. I put stain on my own hands by mistakenly falling in love with my cousin. I don't know how and why it happens but it just came to me and I don't know anymore what to do. 

          It all started when I was reaching my eighteen birthday which naturally for an only girl to celebrate a debut party. My parents were so excited about it because aside from the fact that we are one of those known family in our town we are also known to be the biggest and rich family in town. My entire boy cousin was my eighteen roses and others are from my high school classmates. I even invited and ask my crush to be my escort which he doubted accepts. Having crush on my classmate was all known by my classmates even schoolmate knew it. Every eighteen roses must dance me on the dance floor and my cousin is one of them of course. It was his chance to dance me on the dance floor with the slow and melodic music. He undeniably hot and gorgeous which is normally has with all my cousins, but I could say he really inherent all the beautiful features in the world from his hazel brown eyes that every time stare at you it seems like you were cage and deeply fall for him. His lashes that I always envy for its natural wave and his jaw that looks manly suited him. His well built body that when touches flex and his tattooed muscled chest. I could say that his epitome of perfections. It's not impossible why all of my classmate drool over him."I wander why we always fought over small things before" he said as we slowly own the dance floor. "Don't ask me why, because it's your damn jerk moves that irritated me" I chuckle. "You're damn beautiful" he said with seriousness. Honestly speaking we rarely talk before because he just studied here when he was Grade 8. Most of his years were spent in US. Every time we talk it always end up fighting, that's why my cousin rarely made us close to each other for they knew it would be world war. When it was time for him to give to my classmate, I look at his back as he found his way to our cousins table. 

     Until one day as my cousins keep on teasing toward my crush which made me blush all over because it's so embarrassing. Though my crush just go with flow still it's not so right if only I could tell them my crush or I don't know what to name it I am sure they would act as hell. Everyone got drunk and me was fixing myself because I am about to go to sleep. I saw him (my cousin) at the sink looked blankly on the wall, "Drunk?" I asked. He just shook his head. I look at him suspiciously. And then he said the most dreaded words I ever heard. "I can't stand watching you falling in love to anybody." I look at him unbelievably "You know what I am talking about, baby." I don't know how to stand those confrontations but it scares me that I immediately turn my back from him. I didn't get enough sleep that night. I know everyone would feel happy or worst feel dying once they were told by their love person like that. But me it’s the opposite, yes I am into him but it is impossible for us to happen. I don't know how to escape this trap I am in but I could only ask "Dear God, why did you let me fall in love with someone who is not meant for me?" I know it may sound disgusting but we happen. No one knew about the things between us, we hold hands when we are away from everyone who knew us, we kiss but just that. It may sound so wrong but if feels like everything is perfect when I am with him.

            But I guess not all secrets were meant to be kept especially the things between us. My cousin knew about it and my parents did. They decided to send him (my cousin) abroad away from me. No one understands they all keep their distant away from me. My Mom acted the same way and I am all alone. But then I realize no one will really understand and try to understand for that how they interpret and understand that. 

           I graduated with my degree and work. And I heard that Van is going home with his fiancée to meet his family and plan the wedding. It may sound bitter but I felt like nothing really left for me everything seems to disappear because I still hold onto that faint hope that maybe we could happen or miracle happen but I guess this isn't a movie nor a novel but a reality. He married that girl and he seems to moved on and me still left on that place where he left me. That time when he went home we talk and laugh like nothing happen for the past years. I even wandered did he really loved me? or his just attracted with something forbidden?
  

            One day as go with my boring life I receive a text from him
Van:  Let's meet and talk.
I guess this is it, we will officially end up this sick love of ours. "Snow, are you now okay?" I almost laugh with his questions or maybe they just blindly by my so called boyfriend that I had introduced to them so that I won't feel low of myself. "Oh! I think you are." He laughs forcefully. "If you will ask me, if I really love you. Yes still am. But you know this kind of love will just take us to nowhere. I never love anyone else more than I love you not even my wife but this is the only way." He said as a matter of fact. "Do you think using other people would help or should I say ruining other people." I said it’s not that I am asking him to love me but I am just trying to get his point. "I know it’s not right and very are from right but I know eventually I will love her more than I love you, maybe. Because tomorrow we will fly back to US and live there for good. I know eventually I will forget you and I hope you will someone better than me. If only..." I know that he will learn loving her because he said that the girl knew about us but not the current situation. I see that he will like her eventually. As I stare at him it’s like seeing the immature side of him again I could only laugh myself out once we got over this. Everyone already move on and me I know in no time I will I just have to wait for that right guy who deserve the hot and gorgeous lady like me. Love is both strength and a weakness. Don't be afraid to love for it will teach you many things. Sometimes letting go is the most painful decision everyone was made but it could also be the step to get to the best.

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"Strikes of Eagle"

 

        
      What's the need for government? Why is it necessary to have leaders? Will the crime and country really progress? Many questions and wander that answered differently but end up indifferently. Everyone in the Philippines already know the different platform of different candidates but at the end the best of Davao were chose to stand out among others. Rodrigo "Roa" Duterte, the 16th President of the Philippines. But why of the entire cleanest candidate he is the one. Some answer because he is the deserving one. Understanding the individual’s opinion simply because he made lots of wonderful and admirable things in Davao where he served for two decades of service. Duterte's accomplishment inspires and shines up to people which are truly undeniable. His action toward crime bell on everybody’s ear. Confident and being true to his word          has always been the dominating dot that touches the heart of many.

            Everybody witness how the action of drugs and crime vanish and furnished the every barangays may it from the most isolated and crowded place. The implementation of something has and answered the every Filipino belief of Duterte's iron fist. No doubt he was named as "The punisher " and "The Harry Potter of History". The existence of these names doesn’t just name after him but definitely name for him. Every candidate protest his way of resolving the crime but their argument and sentiments really help or they just swallowed the word they once said?  No one understands justice more than people who understand the real problem of society. No one understands the feeling of those harassed by drug addict more than those who saw and experience such. No one understands mass more than those who once part of the mass. 

            President Rodrigo "Roa" Duterte is like an eagle that is willing to give his whole best just to protect his beloved forest. His courage driven from the people who chosen him. He might be the person with iron fist but definitely he is the person of soft heart for the people who deserve his love. Change will never happen if we ourselves aren't willing to do the same. For the love of my country and for the love of Davao, we will stand strong for the best.

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"Dean’s office of the Accountancy"

Date:  July 28, 2016

To:         UM Non-teaching Personnel

From:  Jennifer Binalimba, Accounting

Subject: Implementing new strategy concerning student’s examination schedule.

   Currently, I have encountered and heard about the occurrence of different reaction about the schedule of examination. In relation to this I would like to suggest or recommend the Saturday 5:30 afternoon to be the schedule, so that it wouldn't affect the other schedule of other subject that student can be prioritize first. It wouldn't also be the burden for the accounting students to study their major subject which is the accounting.

   If this implementation would be consider, would you please disseminate this information to the accounting teachers to inform their students regarding their schedule? Please be guided accordingly.

  

"Mauling Incident"

Incident Title:     Students Fight

Location:              University of Mindanao, DPT Building (Third floor)

Date of Incident: 11:30 (August 1, 2016)

Incident types:   Quarrel and fight of the two Grade-11 students

Victim:                  Berting Isuga

Suspect:               Praning Kaayo

Reason:                Love Triangle

Investigator:      SPO4 Jack Hoback, Talomo Police District

Injuries:             Two 

Fatalities:             None

                 The DPT building specifically the third floor room H3B was said to be the location of the student’s fight of the Grade-11. The said incident was cause by love triangle and misunderstanding. As the investigation's going on about the information that has been reported and given by the said victim and suspect. The information was said to be unreliable due to its unfactual statements.

                Berting Isuga states that Jen, the girl involve was texted to him by meeting him in H3B. Because of the eagerness of knowing Jen, he obliged to agree. But when he got there it surprised him seeing Praning Kaayu with undesirable and rage in his eyes. He was about to back up when Praning Kaayu act violently that restrain him from moving away. Praning Kaayu, attack him with his fist but he predicted it coming so he made his move defensibly and he has no choice but to fight back. In the middle of the fight students who saw them report immediately to the security officer. 

                  Praning Kaayu states that it’s not his fault for it was Berting Isuga who didn't listen to him. He said he already warned him by staying away from his girlfriend Jen but he still insist and continue his motive. So he borrowed Jen's phone by texting Berting Isuga if he really agreed to him. That's why his anger was uncontrollable upon seeing his friend in the H3B. 

              

             As the investigation went on Jen was called for a clarification and settlement of the said incident. She states that her and Praning Kaayu aren't an item nor in a relationship. He just lend him her phone because he said he want to text some friend of him and as a friend she gave it wholeheartedly because she believe it’s necessary to act that way. Regarding Berting Isuga she admits that Praning Kaayu already knows that she has crush on his friend Berting. That's why she was surprised upon hearing that information from Berting Isuga that she and Praning Kaayu are in a relationship. 

                Talomo police station settles this matter with the parents of both sides. Because of too much bruise on both Students University of Mindanao shoulder the payment for their medical. Everybody was alarm from the school even from the outside to be vigilant and be aware of this kind of incident. They should be know and always refer to the consultation regarding their personal feeling. Everybody must be aware and stay safe may it in school or outside the campus. They may be serious matter or injuries that might occur outside more than this.